I am getting EXTREMELY sacred and just keeping thinking about all the bad stuff..HELP! :'(?

basically i was watching this tv program and there was a case of molestation in it and i am very serious about that kind of stuff..too serious actually..but when i was watching it my mind just went like "not again" like in a scoffing way and a few days later my mom after all these years completely out of the blue told me that she was molested as a teenager..and then a few days later i was watching this movie and somebody dies in it and my brain went like "god, they dramatize it too much" and 2 days after that my grandad passed away..he was old and infact seriously ill for the last 4 years but you know now i am super sacred coz both the times i thought it was too trivial or too dramatized it came true and in the last 10 days now, i have watched this movie in which somebody was in coma and my brain thought "god this is too dramatized" and then in this tv program i was watching, i thought this person was okay even though they committed adultery..another thing that i am soooo againt..but my brain thought "MAYBE there were in love" but even though they might be IT IS WRONG and now i am sacred like terrified that whatever i think or scoff off or not take seriously or think is understandable might just come true and i am like dying just thinking about all this and i cant stop my brain from thinking and i have very strong beliefs but just coz i tought something what if it comes true..it is getting so bad that i a not able to sleep and feel suffocated all the time and my heart is always beating in that fast-scared sort of way and i am just so so so sooooo sacred..please HELP!