LOW CONFIDENCE? Can't talk to any of the people I like?

Yup, I've tried to trick me mind and all that but. Mm. There's a girl in me class right, and I am so damn shy and I admire her so damn much, (I'm a girl meself), and it makes me feel so (damn) pathetic, dunnit, cos she don't even go as far as look at me. Unusually, she doesn't scoff at me either which is good, but makes me feel worthless as well, cos I want to get her attention (no, I'm no homo), and she's so what would you call it...intimidating. And, I'm this soppy gentle creature, aggressive at times but when I am I don't speak sense, and wow I've never see her do one thing wrong, she's so perfect and firey arrogant (and this makes me sound like this is remotely sexual but it's not). Incisive and sometimes, in an admirable way, extremely opinionated and stands her ground whether I give in to the even irrational arguments because I get so melty by people who are mouthing off at me. I get surprised if she so much as sits three seats away from me, and whenever I go to sit somewhere it's always her my eyes are drawn to because she's so intense. I don't understand how anyone else can't stand gaping at her all the time, and no, I'm never usually the type that so obsessively admires someone that they don't think they deserve to talk to them (I don't think I deserve to converse in general, heh heh), but can you give me this long, rich Everybody's Equal and Different And Beautiful in Their Own Way Speech ,because they help to open my eyes a little wider. Yep, thanks. :)